I had major plans to keep up the blogging but then I hit another wall. I thought I had met someone who was really into me and I was super surprised when he broke my heart. Then I met someone else, who forgot to mention that he had another girlfriend. So I felt a little betrayed and hurt. Most recently I hung out with someone who had previously talked about being interested in me, he walked me home from a party, kissed me, told me he was interested, and then hasn't talked to me since.

I am so frustrated with my love life at the moment. I feel like I will never meet anyone again. I'm scared to meet someone knowing that at anytime my heart is.maybe.going to get broken. Feeling as if there must be something wrong with me and not knowing how to fix what must be wrong.

Throw on top of this whole drama, a vast majority of people I know are getting married/having babies, and constantly telling me to find someone and why am I still single. This is when I really miss my Grandma. She was always awesome about telling me to pursue other ventures and so what if I'm single, Life is fantastic. Shes been gone 3 years and man I miss her.

Sorry for the emotional dump, but if I'm gonna be me and gonna be true, then I need to be free to write what I need.

Being that I haven't felt like myself for a long time, and feeling like I wasn't being the best I could be, I have decided on a new motto, and a new outlook on life.

BE HAPPY!

Sounds so easy, but is so difficult. It is so easy to be negative and to see the worst in a situation and start to feel down. I have really been working on being happy and not sinking into the negative parts of my day. I am trying to see the successes of my students, and not just notice the behaviors that annoy the junk out of me.

And its working. I was so much more relaxed and calm after the last two days of school. I can't wait to see how I feel about this school year, if my goal is to be happy!!!!

LICE!!!

Yep, pretty sure I have it. It has been in our school on and off for the last couple weeks, and today was the first day I have felt truly itchy. I am going to go and get the shampoo tomorrow and hope for the best.

Tonight I talked to my Dad, and he asked if I would perform (the piano) at his 50th birthday party. I began to cry as soon as I realized that by saying yes that I was going to be adding one more thing to my list of to dos.

I already feel as if I am drowning and can't seem to get on top of things. My house is in shambles, my love life is even worse, and my friendships are sucking cause I have no time for phone conversations and visits.

Man this has turned into a pity party. I'm gonna run here and try to clean a little more.

Happy Weekend!

The start of a new year....

school year that is. I am currently drowning. Figurativly of course, but drowning none the less. Its been kinda crazy this school year. My class is probably one of the most challenging classes I will ever have in my career, and while I am always up for a challenge this seems way more then I can handle.

I obviously can't go into many details, but you can know that this is the biggest class I've taught here in my little town. My first year here I started with 10 students. Last year I had 15 kids and this year I'm up to 19. It it keeps going this way, I'm scared of what it might look like in 3 years.

I really hope to keep updating this more regularly. Its been a crazy summer with boy drama and my sisters wedding, as well as many other weddings this summer. All of which were beautiful and fun.

I'm hoping to get the drama factor down in my life and have cut out most if not all men, except from friends and family. Anyways, there isn't much more news. Hopefully I can keep this up.

man do I ever suck!

Well I have let this blog become nothing. I really haven't had much to say in the last few months. So much has been going on, but I just never felt like I wanted to share. I'm ready now and have processed many of the things happening and I finally am ready to share.

I have been really struggling with my health for the past 3 months. There is a possibility of tumors or big cysts growing on my ovaries, that are causing me quite a bit of pain and quite a bit of worry. I have another ultrasound this upcoming Friday so I'm hoping to have some resolution to this concern of mine.


And the big news.... as if those arn't big enough. I am currently taking the Foster care Pride program. I am considering becoming a foster parent and am taking the class and doing all kinds of research to see if this is something that I can do.

Anyways I'm still working on losin weight. I have lost 8 pounds in 2 months and am still trying to make that a nice 15 before my sisters wedding in August.

I am hoping to update this more as I actually have news to share now.

Yoga

I went to my first yoga class. Its hard. I knew it probably wasn't easy, but I didn't realize exactly how hard it was. Anyways I wanted to document a weight loss of 2.5 pounds. I was excited when I stepped on the scale on Monday morning. Lets hope this continues eh????

LOSER!

Well I woke up early Monday morning and prayed that the scale would show some movement. I was truly expecting to see the scale jump up. I had been to visit my sister in Manitoba and had not eaten the best.

I am proud to say that I lost one pound! But I reached my goal is 10 activity points. So thats it so far. HOpefully I can keep losing.

I went to the gym tonight and had a friend show me some really good workouts for my triceps. I'm hoping to get my arms more toned as well.